Loser: Story about myself and how everything can go wrong

People complain how horrible their lives are....there is this lil trick they can do..jus detach themselves from their lives and take a look at it from a distance....seeing ur life objectively gives u one of the best enjoyments ever....the vouyeristic pleasure where nothing is hidden from u gives a kick and the fact that all of ur miserys and failures can be seen in a very very funny way is amazing.....



Some of us (I know the rest are all happy with gfs who worship u) have the bad luck of lacking the ability of proving ourselves worthy for a second date....asking the more successful ones it seems that the trick is to look old , rich and boring.....i cant do neither of that....so here is one of recent incidents for me



THE FINANCIAL PLANNER



Recently one of old friend happened to give me a VIP pass to a reality show set...exciting cos I never get a vip pass and this was the contender with the boxing and stuff. Anywaythe quality of girls over there was amazing in the vip zone with all the MTV vjs and all around and once I thought I was in heaven my mistake.

Two morning before goin there I had convinced myself in the morning that I wouldnt even attempt to hit on anyone and I was at peace.

So this friend of mine whom I have gone with(female with whom I had a history before but i didnt feel anythign for her) had some of her old school friends there too. Now one of them was cute as hell but as I had resolved not to even try I jus didnt do anything for a while. When my friend left to go to the rest room...this girl edges closer and starts up a conversation with me. I was carrying my nikon d80 with me and somehow the camera and phd combo seems to work well.

So she gives me her card "Ruth ........... Financial Advisor". I reply " Im the worst person to be friends with cos I have no money for u to advise me on".

So the night ends and we all go for dinner together and there is this other girl also there who keeps on talking with me ,...takes my number and never called me yet.

So a week goes by and I sms ruth with a gay joke about myself....well some guy was hitting on me during the show...... and she replys back and there are some sms exchanges and next week she agrees to meet me. But but this seems all nice.....



Day before i meet her...she is like "would i bring all the plans I have to show u and all" and Im not really interested in anything except her so I say no and she is like "its never too late to start". Now i start totally losing interest......but anyway I go for a movie and all and it seems ohhkkk.



She messages me again for meeting me...I am like wow..."Am i that good" then she messages me like "Financial Planning tonite??"

After that I never even reply to her sms or pick up her call.....I wish financial planning was a code word for something else but it sux when things are so literal........

Lesson Learnt: never show interest in any financial planner,insurance agents inspite of how nice or cute they are

LabView8.2

The pic on the top is the pic of my lab..its actually a normal pic i jus screwed up the cross processing to make it look like a shady lab....which makes bioweapons ...next is a pic of me this saturday.........well nothing much about it.....

Any given wednesday...

Its a wednesday....kinda that day i pretend to be busy with frequent "sighs" sitting at my table and actually slack.....thats how I can get time to write this blog......

*Things have been ok.......Ill be brutally honest.....I have to accept the fact that no girl will ever go out with me ever ever ever.....well I have already accepted that fact yesterday morning...so i have spent the last 2 days in zen without feeling terrible about myself....its jus the way it is....some people have a large head...or are bald ...or stammer...ill jus be single(its my thing)....so i have accepted it and its peaceeee............
there were some possiblities in the last few weeks there were some possiblities but i dont think they will matetrialize

*Advanced quantum mechanics is a pain in the ass...i think i have read like 3 chapters at undergrad level jus to understand things again....trying to do that now...its best to sit at spinellis(coffee shop at the university hall) and read it ...thats wat i do ...partly cos there is this really sweet cute girl at the counter...who always messes up my order(put milk in my black coffee, gave me a cup with liptick on it) and thus i have to go back thre and there is some gigling involved.......also the place is nice ...

*Life's a bitch.....no time for myself...i bought the vcd of the tencious D movie and i dont even have time to watch it.....morning to night im at the lab and then im back home trying to catch up on topics like matlab,qm,laser cooling and ion-solid interactions...i dotn even have time to breathe except that half an hr i get to eat my dinner in front of my laptop....

*im jus gonna write the things i have left to do...so that i can look at my blog and ill eb like ...shit...
1) Be good in qm....i need to be
2)do the tutorials on accelrator based materials characterization module(for that i have to read the notes and the book..the problems look easy enuff...something like classical mechanics collision cross section stuff)
3)read stuff on laser cooling...im falling ebhind there are some notes by cohen tanaoudji and there is the metcalf book i need to read....
4)read the stuff on cavitys....i ahve to get my cavity working as a frequency filter...(okk some people are switching off here)