The worlds oldest teenager

Of temporary reclusiveness and disgust

2008-05-24T19:04:00.000-07:00

I recently bought the comic miniseries "Wanted"...(yes real men read comic books ...u turds )....The top picture is the movie which is gonna release soon with angelina jolie and below is the cover of the comic its based on....

Its about this guy getting fucked over by life ....his gf is sleeping with his best friend quite blatantly....eating the same salmon sandwich every day wishing everyday was different.... then suddenly he is told my this hot chick that he is the son of th greatest assassin in the seven dimensions the universe is made of and he is gonna inherit 50 million dollars if he takes his position....So begins his transformation from a regular guy stuck in a cubicle to one of the greatest assassins ever....he is so good he can make bullets bend (actually if a horizontal component is added to a bullet velocity with a proper groove bullets can acutally bend ) and shoot wings off flies... anyway the trailer for the movie is this with angelina jolie looking really really good...

Anyway Im in one of those reclusive moods where I tend to avoid boring human company (i do enjoy conversations with intelligent people) and im less pliant in sitting amongst people who piss the fuck out of me........these includes people doin small talk about their jobs...("oh hi so ur position gives u control over companies looking at natural resources"..."this would really look good on her resume when she applies for an MBA" I mean look how boring this is ...this is not a fucking job fair...get a life).

I am really happy without having a gf. Its horrible to stuck in a relationship when the gf will only put out once a month like she is in a 60s. But the real horrible deal which comes with ur gf is her "FRIENDS". Who in the fuck likes their gf's friends......they are composed of girls who will keep telling her she can get better than u (perhaps an investment banker who will pay her by the hr) and some guys who are waiting for the opportunity to hump her as soon as she grants access to her naughty parts.

Yesterday at french class I had to spend half an hour listening to a girl telling us about her experience as a volunteer in a fucking elephant farm in french. I mean I can understand people going out helping other people but a fucking elephant farm, what do you do? clean the football sized crap? Girls in the french class are either there to get a french guy or they want to pleases their french bf's grandparents (Im sure its not easy to fool a pair of french peasents from burgundy in their 60s) so they can live in France happily ever after eating smelly cheese and obsessing about if their country is gonna slide into recession because their president is singing "L'amour" with his wife. Even worse is them calling their bfs in the middle of the class to alk in french....urrrghhhh.......our teacher although 27 yr old acts like a big fucking tinker bell with her behavious like a 12 yr old...actually i dont dislike her that much....

I think I have lost the mean edge I had and gone all soft. I need to get back into the meanness restoration program which includes:

DONT GIVE A FUCK: part one of the program...try not giving a fuck of anything around you...be it some girl whining or ur boss taking it out on u cos his wife has stopped having sex with him......just dont give a fuck....give a blank stare with a half smile and keep staring till they get bored....
MASSIVE WEIGHT TRAINING: Ull be mean when u look mean...try lifting weights atleast 4 days a week ...serious weight lifting...not like those hairy middle aged men who go to the gym to embarress themselves and hog the equipment..have a proper program
BE AS UNCOMPROMISING AS POSSIBLE: Hey pleasing anyone dosent help...they will know ur easy and will take advantage of you...just do what u want, say what u want...u dont have to please anyone ...if they like u as u are they will come to you....if u say the food is crap say it....if u think the ur gf is not good enuff tell her to get lost ... if u think what the other guy is saying is stupid tell him to shut up...
FORGET WHAT THE WORLD IS SAYING: The world is always trying to delude us with wrong signals and making us believe that we are born ordinary and the greatest thing we can achieve is a good job, a happy family blah blah..aka "The Believer's Utopia"..Hey and 99% of us are hooked by this stereotypical dream this system has created as a method to achieve stability....The lower the energy of the system, the more stable it is...oppressing the dreams of the people is how the system keeps them in lower energy states and achieves stability...its does not mind one of two loose canons breaking all these barriers and just getting what they dreamed of....werent you like that when u were 5 ..when u really had dreams and thought they will come true...but the constant mis direction of the world had made u realize it was ur "childhood fantasy" Maybe the half hearted life ur living now is the fantasy and what ur "non stunted flexible" brain was thinking then was true...jus go ahead and get what you want....

How not being satisfied with your life might just work for you

2008-05-03T20:03:00.000-07:00

Since I was a kid, I have been a big complainer. I am bit fussy over everything and am very hard to satisfy(non sexual reference). But I maybe one of the few people I know who believe sincerely that if you are not satisfied with what you have it will drive you and motivate you to want more and more.

Being happy is the worst thing that can happen to you. Can you imagine those mornings when you were truly happy, you don't care about anything. You take in your breakfast slowly,read the newspaper and slowly go to work. Chances are you will be fired within few months if you enjoy your life so much. Also remember the time you had a girlfriend and you were really happy. You did not care if you lost your job or lost your friends all because u were really satisfied. In every direction you looked , you only saw her face. That illusion did not last for long and when you hit the ground really hard , you realized you had even lost the quality of motivation.

I believe being hungry, dissatisfied and having your back against the wall would be the best thing that can happen to you, because if will uncover the sheer willpower you have to break free from the rut. Many people instead of trying to break free from the prison of misery they are in permanently try for a temporary solution with tiny things which might cause them temporary pleasures. Also this illusion does not last forever and you end up at the place you started from, this time even more de motivated because you have the illusion of trying different things(tiny pleasure solution) and failing to achieve the happily ever after.

In conclusion, the best thing is to look facts straight in the face, and see how miserable your life is and how you want to change it. This is the only way which can get you out of the job, relationship or any other situation which you hate so much.

Post Traumatic Exam Stress Disorder

2008-05-03T05:04:00.000-07:00

Exams are stressful. No I don't mean that get up at 5 o clock drink 10 espresso and laborious preparation, but I also mean the psychological impact which comes along with it. Some exams come with tons at stake along with it and thinking that you have done badly means it can be career changing for you. My quantum information exam did not go as well as planned in spite of putting atleast 7 or 8, 12 hr days behind it which is horribly disappointing. To understand the monstrosity of the exam , part of one question required us to find the eigenvalues of 4 X 4 matrix on spot (people who know what eigenvalues are would know how terrible and impossible this is.) My other exam which is "Nano structure" went really well and I think I got everything right. Exams over and really emotionally battered I have to continue my Atom chip experiment.

Going back to a previous blog of mine, I had made a fleeting reference to a young girl in my French class who I enjoy a conversation with. The young girl who is actually got a name, Julie , was offended on reading my blog about calling her a young girl because apparently calling someone young means calling them stupid. Anyway I am grateful to Julie to make my post exam time very delightful providing an intelligent conversation and movie partner. I have gone with her for "Iron man" which turned out to be superb and then for frozen margaritas afterwards. I happened to go for "Other Boyeln girl" with her today only to run out of the theater with her because the movie was terribly suffocating. She seems to have this terrible impression that Im a mean man and she gets quite a kick from that. Anyway hoping to see more of her in the future before she leaves for cambridge.

Max the Effing genius

2008-04-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

My respect for Max, the italian post doc in my lab has increased 10 fold after a lunch time discussion with him. No it did not concern physics, but women and periods.. yes u read it write women and periods(time of the month kinda thing).
Ever since Max has bought the nokia N85 he hasnt been wasting it like most stupid people i know to listen to music and movies... he has been downloading free gps softwares and other productivity tools... there is something he downloaded which deserves real respect...
Its called the period tracker...btw Max is in his late 30s.......u enter the time of the month for a girl/woman and it keeps track of her period and her ovulation time....now how why does he need to use it:

1) Situation one: Some girl could not have sex with him a particular time due to her time of the mnth gets noted down by him and its stored in his phone.....btw u can track periods of upto N number of girls...

Once he had the info..the software tells him when she is ovulating aka...when she will put out....for me ovulating girls dosent guarantee sex but for a italian in his 30s in singapore it does......
so using his ovulation calendar he texts the girls accordingly...and 9/10 times he gets a positive response(what follows is 3 hrs in a budget hotel......nvm)
if the girl dosent reposnd during the ovulation period...he discards her and moves to another one...

2)Situation 2: He is also married. He uses it to track the PMS demon of his wife... so apparently like 5 days before the main event ...he is extra nice and goes home in time....

Using this application he is in perfect control of all the women in his life....now how great is that...

Maximally Entangled Life

2008-04-12T09:16:00.000-07:00

Its 12:18 on a Saturday night and I jus opened my laptop to find the series expansion of ln(x). There is this problem im trying to solve about mutual information in a quantum key distribution problem under a evesdropping scenario where Eve(evesdropper) is trying to create false states similar to the singlet state and trying to put a label on it. I have to prove that the mutual information between Alice and Bob is way larger than the mutual information between Eve and any one of the participents. So basically as I increase N or the number of states Eve creates ..mutual information between eve and any of them tends to zero ...so she is left out of the loop...

anyway I wrote up this whole mumbo jumbo graduate level quantum information stuff cos I have been reading that this entire day and I find the Ekert 91 protocol for QKD very very interesting and how they use violations of Bell's inequality to prove that the quantum channel is secure.

Anyway i have become so involved with the physics shit that I cant stop talking about it. Anyway its just that I have a test on monday on it and I have to study for it and im lucky that i find it interesting.

Life is all fine. Sb started abusing me yesterday suddenly on the realization that one find day in 2006 she made a mistake of leaving her ex bf(whom I dont really admire) and start "goin out" with me. If a girl leaves a dude and goes out with me and then she regrets it, its not really my fault and abusing me wont help her anyway. Just some insecure girl screaming dosent bother me at all.

I managed to have 2 pints of erdinger again on friday night. Im simply falling in love with this delicious beer which is such a delight to drink.I can have atleast 4 pints of it I think in one setting.

My french class was terrible today starting with a test which I was totally unprepared for. I am now officially the buffoon and the slacker of the class and I feel im back to my high school status. Some 18 yr old girl who sits to me who will be goin off to cambridge soon makes an interesting conversation partner in the class. I donno whats happening with me and young girls nowdays. Although I know thats how nature has meant us to be,I feel guilty for no reason when I enjoy a conversation with a girl that young.

Thanks to my impossibly overloaded schedule, I hardly get to see human beings. Im either working in the lab or at home and the only meals I get are sandwiches from the cafe in our canteen which I et while working. So occasionally when i do go out somewhere or even when I decide to have my lunch at the canteen, I m suddenly struck with the realization that "some girls are really beautiful". This realization hits me like a ton of bricks because after this constant lab/home schedule I often forget about the existence of beautiful girls.

I should really give up on Nikki and start dating someone else. All they do is complain about life and be depressed and I have to get out of this visicious cycle. Although all she does is talk abotu how her life is shit, Nikki has the amazing opinion that I am inconsistent with my "feelings" for her. Anyway I have to find a fresh girl with a zest for life and date her. This time im looking for a singer cos I appreciate music so much and I would like someone who can sing and play the guitar with me. As usual she must be pretty and witty and I dont mind if it was Carla Bruni.

How many physicists does it take to move a table....

2008-04-02T08:58:00.000-07:00

Answer is four, today it took four of us to move our optical table which weighs a ton

People think physicists do nothing,....occasionally i have some girl in my french class asking me questions like "do you guys ever make anything that works...??" anyway ignoring the ignorant shit the french learning, caucasian bf seeking pretentious gucci sunglass wearing girls who know nothing about physics except it was a subject they flunked at high school , I would like the world to know that we experimentalists do real work......like moving heavy shit..making circuits and lasers to work and stuff like that.....

Anyway i dont expect much out this world where some dude called "soulja boy" is topping charts in the us and people are making salsa songs about barack obama. As some black comedian on the Jay leno show said "black people are not the solution to all of america's problems".

As I wrote in my last post about people complaining alot.........and people obsessing about somethig not that important. Like this whole fad about Barrack obama, I know its cool having a minority winning the election in US but common we dont know anything about this guy and he can come into power and fuck the world just as Bush did.....I think we shouldnt celebrate that obama is winning but jus that bush will no longer be president.....

There are these tons of lame ass couples around me who do stupid shit to keep the love alive........some girl gave her bf a $400 buck watch.....I mean common if u wanna keep the love alive and ur bf is not 50 cents or P.Diddy do u think investing in bling will result in happily ever after............

People who like clean looking girls and soft nice music should listen to Colby Caillat (atleast thats wat the spelling ) and her song bubly....its really really nice.....and also Sara something with her song "love song".....

Anyway Ill probably write more in the deadly boring Seminar lecture time.....people who think beer is bitter should realy try Erdinger ....u can easily drink two pints of it and not find it bitter at all....

Relative Misery

2008-04-01T08:52:00.000-07:00

Its 11:54 at night when im writing this blog. Its been a long day starting at 8 in the morning and it was only at 11 when i finally returned home. Now im perched in front of my tv in a towel writing this blog.

People all around me are complaining how miserable their lives are. The guy from my lab just recently got kicked out of the lab for being not all there in the head kept on complaining how everyone was unfair to her and he actually needed more time and training. I would totally admit what was done to him was unfair but this is the thing thats wat I went thru and I survived being one step ahead of my supervisor's demands.

This girl I was interested in called niki always complains to me how her life is miserable and how her MCP boss makes her life hell. How her last 3 bfs cheated on her and how she is always stressed from doin too many things at the same time. Before people start complaining they should take time to analyze their lives first. I mean if u are 3rice deceived by 3 different guys , u have to realize u have been shopping in the "Cheaters and Sleazebag" aisle all this while. Also what she does not focus on is that she meets a million people everyday and has no time to analyze her life and that she is perpetually headed catastrophically on the roller coaster of devastation.

Girls who have had one or two bad flings with so called "love" where a guy promised her blah blah and then didnt deliver the package they promised learn to effectively portray themselves as the poor hapless victim. I mean poor Jews in Nazi concentration camps were victims. These girls jus chose some random guys cos they were "lonely" went for dinners, received gifts, made out with them. This is not exactly being a victim. I know tons of guys done over by girls, taken advantage blah blah but none of them open their file of "my miserable victimhood". Women should really close this file otherwise they will repel the next sane guy who will come.

Misery is so perfectly relative to the situation we are in. When i was in high school eating cream cracker biscuits for lunch and traveling on a shitty school bus while the temperature was at 42 C these things didnt matter to me. On top of that we were made to wear ties to school everyday even in the worst of summer and if any french cook needed to demonstrate what "sauteed" really looked like they should have shown us.

So all these people with problems like "why didnt he love me?? " and "why were they unfair to me" jus need a bohooo cos this aint problem at all. People in africa have real problems, all these people have are a lil tiny bump on their bed of roses.

Strange(r) Attraction

2008-03-15T21:46:00.000-07:00

I think I am falling in love with a complete stranger. It may not be love, but I am strangely attracted to her in a strongly non platonic way. I see her almost everyday now on the bus and she is only there for five minutes before she gets down at her bus stop. But these for this five minutes, all I can do is admire her and fall in love with her.
I take the bus 198 from jurong east everyday morning to school. She is always there on the 9:25 bus when I get in. She is probably indian, but Im clueless from which part she is from. She is petite,beautiful and seems sharp as a whip. The amount of confidence in her movements I notice in the five minute time window I get impresses me. Maybe my attraction towards her are purely superficial and lustful but it has not happened to me in a while. She gets down two stops after I get up and goes to work. One of these days I hope to strike a conversation with her.

An Ordinary Week

2008-03-07T22:13:00.000-08:00

Dragan Effect: My take on it

2008-02-10T02:31:00.001-08:00

First picture is the original ...next one after trying my own take on the effect using photoshop...its pretty close and Ill post the tutorial later

The effect is named after this polish photographer at warshaw who also happen to be a quantum physicist

Funnny Scene from Eurotrip:This scene cracks me up always

2008-02-02T21:32:00.000-08:00

This scene with the gay italian guy on the train and the tunnels and the song "hot stuff" in the background are tooo good put together...

Favorite Girl at this moment:Katherine Heigl

2008-01-31T02:13:00.001-08:00

I simply love her. Most of you must know her from greys anatomy and the movie knocked up. She looks smart and is sooo damn pretty...she does remind me a bit of lisa kudrow with the blond hair.

Mystery:Nothing Describes my past relationships like this song

2008-01-25T19:16:00.001-08:00

More Geek Comics:Survival,Survival (the real story),Pushover and Relationships

2008-01-21T20:25:00.000-08:00

Boring Boring Graduate Seminar Module

2008-01-21T00:44:00.000-08:00

The only reason im writing this blog right now is cos we have this compulsary sucky sucky module called graduate seminar module where we are having something as retarded as library training right now.
After being thru 4 yrs of undergraduate studies which involved extensive library use,paying fines, looking thru articles I really donno why have to go thru all this.
If not for the 1.5 shots of expresso I had in me(1.5 because i threw away half of the last shot cos we ahve expresso machine and coffee is free for us).

Whats been happening to me lets see:

*I have this boring module which i hate hate hate...i feel like someone is deliberately trying to destroy my brain activity capacity...other one is nanoscience which is like goin thru a silent movie in half speed

*im learning french ..well goin well...nice teacher....very pretty teacher(looks like elisha watever in some angles) but i feel like in nursery school saying the alphabets and numbers aloud....there are 2 pretty girls in my class and i already ahve my number(no big credit cos we were supposedd to give each other those)

Favorite Videos:Stuff I knew and Discovered on Youtube

2008-01-20T07:26:00.000-08:00

Someday:MLTR I sang this song so many times

Bubbly:This song is so clean and innocent I love it

Searching for tango I got this spanish song...I actually love it

Pop goes my heart:Cos i love the song

Searching for ave maria gave me this...I like this quite a lot

Love this one too:Aux champs elysees

La Mer :Another french song I love

Amerika by Rammstein:very powerful

Random Pics More

2008-01-19T07:52:00.000-08:00

More Random Pics

2008-01-19T07:50:00.000-08:00

Random Pics from my Blackberry

2008-01-19T07:37:00.001-08:00

Major Spoiler: Cloverfield Monster Revealed:Yes I saw the movie and drew it

2008-01-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

Yesss, I saw the moster before the rest of the world because the movie released in Singapore atleast 1.5 days before in the us and the rest of the world.

On top is the picture i drew of the moster(I wish i could have taken a shot in the theatre but i would have been arrested)

The top most picture is pretty accurate description of the monster,they never reveal where it came from or wat happened to it. Its like huge,huge dinosaur(see the small tank and people for comparision) and has this weird front leg,

The face of the moster is like a snake, with 2 inflatable bags of membrane which inflate when its breathing, I could not draw a proper pic because the face is shown only for a moment.

There are also these spider like creatures which fall from tis body which resembles the spiders from star ship troopers.

Movie is intense and lot of people die but it is also too short and inconclusive but its really fun to watch it.

Random Facts at the end of the year 2007

2007-12-29T21:37:00.000-08:00

The year is finally at an end (2007) and wat a year it was....phew....tosst turvy...emotional rollercoaster....using all the cliched words overused in trash american entertainment television..... but to look at it was not that bad a year....I finally got of out of qan addiction..careful not to get into a new one for several years....so here are the facts now:

1) im in calcutta after a whole long year...strangely nothing much has changed since last year and not much of a difference.....saveda lot of money with generous friends offering to pay the bill......met some friends after 2.5 yrs was really goood.....but its good that im only here for a week...too short to get all attached and then be depressed when i go back to singapore

2) I sooooo wished i had bought my d80 with me to clacutta ...so much to shoot....its just mind boggling...subjects...textures....drmatic lightning( specially in winter)

3) Its really sucky that im returning on the 31st of december....bit dramatic...though....but i have this belief that if I celebrate my 31st the year next sucks...so I woulndt really want 2008 to suck

4) I have decided to lead a good life(shit i dont even know the spelling) atleast the first six mnths of 2008 and see how it leads...I have lost many of my principles and this time I have firm resolution to get them back...no drinking and other unmentionables I have done throughout 2007

5) I have a ton of books to read ...which i have obtained and have to read them...some of them will be soo cliched that you would be sighing when u read the list :

Blind Assasin
Razors Edge
English August
The innocent man
Five people you meet in heaven

and now the bad ones:

Awaken the giant within
Rich dad poor dad

Anyway Ill be back in singapore tommorow and ill update the comics definitely....

tatazzz

Geek Life: Makeover OS Style

2007-12-10T08:34:00.000-08:00

Geek Life:Immaculate Virgin Conception

2007-12-10T08:33:00.001-08:00

Sorry Guys...Had exams

2007-12-10T08:31:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys for the lack of comics.............had exams the last 2 weeks

The Kingdom:Review

2007-12-10T07:52:00.001-08:00

The Kingdom : Starring Jamie Fox and Jennifer Garner ... 7/10

I have been watching tons of movies lately...cos simply my exams are over and I dont ahve much to do. I happened to watch the kingdom twice not only cos I liked it also cos I happened to be with two different groups. Kingdom is about a team of FBI agents lead by jamie fox to investigate bombings on american citizens in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia. I wouldnt go on describing the story here if u want to read the story link is at: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Kingdom_(film)

Salient points of the movie include the local police cheif Al Ghazi who has more significant role than most of the American cast. Jamie foxx does the good know it all american ready to save the world kinda deal but Al Ghazi steals the show with down to earth realistic comments and in his naive way pointing how how ridiculous western culture actually is. The movie is believable in its content but has amazing action sequences with all kinds of weapons thrown in. If u want to watch a more interesting version of Syriana I would recommend watching this movie.

Strange Fog and LIght combination from my window

2007-12-06T07:28:00.000-08:00

One Week:BNL

2007-11-26T19:02:00.000-08:00

One week by Bare Naked Ladied: One of my all time favourite songs.

Saw it first in the last scene of American Pie.its still great

Week Before the Exams:Short Notes

2007-11-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

I have exams in a week, advanced quantum mechanics which deals mainly feynman's path integral formulation, semi classical expansion, stochastic systems and fermions.....well im kinda well prepared for it ...just have to gothru revisions and derivations
Tommorow got plans to go partying as usual...gotta restrain on the alcohol..not too many "long island teas" tommorow night cos I dont want to spend saturday nursing a hangover with lemon water trying to rehydrate myself when I also have a bbq at my supervisor's place later that day
Heard about calcutta coming under curfew with my school area becoming a hot spot...Nothing to say about it jus that too many people only want to create trouble and donno why west bengal is even keep tasleema nasreen(i really hate those "intellectuals" who want cheap popularity by writing controversial stuff..salman rushdie being one of them
have several ideas for the next comic strip(linux vs mac, virgin conception) will have to get time to do it
most probably be goin to cambodia on the 15th of december ..landing in siam rep checking out ankor wat....
will go to calcutta on the 21st of december...will be really uncomfortable because last time I was there I had a gf and everything and everything seemed perfect....well lifes not perfect and hehe gotta keep the show running...

Geek Life:Girls and Mp3

2007-11-15T05:31:00.000-08:00

All of the above are based on conversations from real life

Geek Life:2nd Life

2007-11-14T08:41:00.001-08:00

2nd Life fans...this is for u

Geek Life

2007-11-14T07:59:00.001-08:00

Inspired by xkcd and phd life...i decided to dabble and start my own minimalist comic strip about geek life...click it to get a better view...im sure the first few ones will not be that good

Im in love with Tina Fey

2007-11-13T02:20:00.000-08:00

Im in love with tina fey,after watching 30 rock where she is there with alec baldiwn.

what more can I want , she is smart, a comedy writer and obviously really hot. I love hot geek chicks obviously involved in comedy. She looks amazing in those glasses.

HDR and Photoshop Combined

2007-11-08T00:44:00.001-08:00

Used HDR and Photoshop to create this Apocalyptic Image of My neighbourhood

Writer's Block

2007-11-05T06:26:00.000-08:00

Writing without anything in mind is hard or even having really really disorganized thoughts is hard even harder is writing this blog with the tv on with house running makes it even tougher.

What is there to write about anyway? Maybe its the fact that 12 yrs in a morale crushing boys school had made me so awkward with women that I do a great job of repelling them or the fact that drinking 4 times a week is really bad for me. Or maybe that movies are mostly optimistic unrealistic bullshit and I will tell you why.

Recently I had run out of movies to watch and ended up with something called "the holiday". Some blah blah really bad chick flick that I had to fast forward through. The movie did have cameron diaz and kate winslet whom I like a lot but also had jude law whom I hate cos my ex liked him and fantasized about him instead of me. Anyway these horrible over optimistic chick flicks are so full of shit that they make u believe life improves when it never does. Basic idea is when someone "special" leaves u there is always someone else right there to take her place..but reality is that there is no one there and you jus go from worse to miserable during those times alone.

I did get "American Gangster" from a guy I know and I plan to watch this movie. Personally I dont like Denzel Washington at all because he overdoes his part, not much overdoing as Jamie Fox who really really overacts. But i dolike Russell Crowe a lot and I think he will do a really good job in the movie.

Some people in this world want everyone to believe that they are having a lot of "Fun". What im sure of is that they are not really having so much more fun that you or me, but what do they acheive by making everyone believe that they are having the most fun. Is it cos that their childhoods were that miserable that they have to over compensate for it by talking about it all the time.

Penning down my Crazyness:My moleskin Notebook

2007-11-05T02:02:00.000-08:00

Recently I have seen many people(europeans) lately armed with a moleskin notebook where they write down something after every half an hour. As original as I am I decided to buy myself one to pen down my crazy thoughts as they come and hopefully piece them together into the worlds craziest novel. I also included a happyness quotient everytime I write which is basically a score out of 10 of how happy I am. This is a way to track my mood over weeks and years maybe.

So what I got until now is :

1) "Bra" means good in swedish.. so if u want to buy a good bra...go to the store in sweden and say "BRa bra"(only for the ladies...ccrossdressers plzz use french ...suits u better)

2) had a funny thought about a guy who tries to make a move on a girl in a club, bus or any location and whent he girl retaliates and people gather around him ..he shouts "im gay , im gay" just sounded funny in my head....

Nightwatch and Daywatch

2007-11-02T20:59:00.000-07:00

I like dark movies with underlying themes of fight between good and evil cos maybe they reflect the daily shit we go through trying to control the internal conflicts we have.

Nightwatch , daywatch and something to come are a triology of movies based on a russian fairytale theme about the fight between good and evil. Here light and dark have been brought to an agreement for centuries and delicate balance exists between each with both sides careful enough not to break the agreement.

Set in mordern moscow, it is a welcome relief from dark american movies set in new york or something and the actors are a refreshing change and also the way the movie is shot. Nightwatch mainly tells us about the protagonist Anton, who got involved in the light/dark shit when he tried using a witch to kill his unborn child. Movie has shape transformers, vampires, dark light dimensions, trucks on nitro and some really really beautiful women. Nightwatch is about them trying to stop a vortex over modern moscow and anton discovering that is son is still alive and who will later be the great one and make the dark stronger.

Daywatch shows how his son is becoming stronger and stronger till he releases destruction over entire moscow and about the chalk of destiny to reverse time.

Most of the movie is shot in a cross processed greenish hue which is my favorite, the visual effects are great and the constant heavy metal background music makes the two movies really heart pumpinly good.

Santanico Pandemonium

2007-10-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

My favorite video of all time....relally really smouldering salma hayek dancing to some real good music from the movie "Dusk till dawn"....starring george clooney and tarantino.....i really like robert rodriguez movies....hayek has a small role in the movie as a vampire who gets killed wayyy too fast but lets beer drip on her leg into tarantino's mouth.....

Become a millionaire: Start saving in your youth

2007-10-18T19:20:00.000-07:00

I came up upon the article ..... courtesy fo digg.com...pretty good tips I think....
none of the rich dad pimp dad bullshit...
article from yahooo finance

"Being young and financially irresponsible is great fun, but being old and broke stinks.
Still, that doesn't mean you have to become a shut-in and put every spare cent into your retirement plan. Tuck away a little bit on a regular basis and you can party when you're 19 and 99.

The turbulent 20s, that sometimes pleasurable, often painful transition from carefree adolescence to responsible adulthood, is admittedly a difficult time for anyone to focus on saving for retirement.
"It's tough to start talking too many numbers with young people because a lot of times they're also overwhelmed -- it's their first job, their first real paycheck, their first apartment, their first time dealing with health insurance," says Derek Avdul, financial consultant and author of "Real Life 101: The Workbook."
"When you have all these variables going on and they're trying to be grown-ups, retirement just takes a back burner for a lot of them."
Small sacrifices Saving a little bit each month from the time you are young doesn't require great sacrifice, yet it can make the difference between prosperity and poverty in the second half of your life.
Put retirement front and center
1. Cut the financial umbilical cord 2. Make affordable sacrifices 3. Women: Pay close attention 4. Make it, but don't take it 5. Don't pass up free-money 401(k) plans 6. Live within your means

The reason their parents' generation continues to harp on it, with the best of intentions of course, is that many of them wish they'd started saving earlier, when they could have made smaller sacrifices and let compound interest do the heavy lifting. Compound interest, you may recall, is interest that is calculated on the initial principal and the accumulated interest of prior periods.
But that sage advice, as sound as it is timeless, still mostly falls on deaf ears.
"You can't talk to them about 30 years from now and how compound interest is going to benefit them, because, as we all know, at that age you know a lot more than anybody older than you and you're not going to need retirement money because you're going to make it big on your own," Avdul says.

Cut the financial umbilical cord

Unrealistic money expectations are rampant among young people today, according to author Nicholas Aretakis, who interviewed hundreds of 20-somethings coast to coast for his tough-talking survival guide, "No More Ramen."
"Why don't they save? The short version is, they never had to do it before. Their parents, the baby boomers and just after, have done so well economically that they've never had to have a budget before," he says.
"The problem is, when they're living at home, they take for granted that room and board is free, transportation is relatively free, most of their expenses are gratis on the parents, so they've got that financial umbilical cord. When they do break out on their own, they find out that everything has an associated cost. It's a really tough concept for them that they just got done with college and they already have to save for retirement, so some of them are frozen in time and they just don't start saving," Aretakis says.

Make affordable sacrifices
Peg Downey, a fee-only Certified Financial Planner and partner in Money Plans, of Silver Spring, Md., says it only takes a small lifestyle adjustment early on, not a major commitment, to get this saving party started.
"If they just saved what they spend everyday at Starbucks, they would have a million dollars right there when they retired," she says. "It's phenomenal."
Maybe not a million -- but a half million, easy. Why quit the daily stop at Starbucks? You can brew that good stuff at home much more cheaply.
Let's say that, beginning at age 25, you put the equivalent of seven $4 grande lattes a week toward retirement, setting aside $121 a month. If you invest it in a stock mutual fund with annualized returns of 9 percent, you would see $23,415 after 10 years, $80,814 after 20 years, $221,520 after 30 years and a whopping half-mil, or $566,440, when you retire at age 65.
Similarly, you can add even more to your retirement funds if you routinely set aside the price of small purchases.

Small trade-offs to make for future security:
A couple of movie dates a month.
An occasional manicure or tanning session.
Music CDs.
A couple of appletinis a week.

Women: Pay close attentionOf course, historically, investing in a stock fund that mimics an index such as the Standard & Poor's 500 has offered returns of 10 percent, but there is no guarantee that it will continue to do so in the future. Nevertheless, young folks are in the best position to weather the storms of volatile markets because they have more time to recoup losses.

Downey says young women in particular need to start socking away the latte cash sooner rather than later.
"They're going to live longer, they're going to earn less, and they may need to fund their own retirement," she says. "The way that jobs work now, you don't stay at one job more than a couple of years, so nobody is going to be building up any kind of pension, even if there was one."
Make it, but don't take itThe easiest way to make affordable sacrifices on a regular basis? Take the money out of your paycheck before it hits your hand.
"Get them to open up a savings account and, even if it's $20 a paycheck, just siphon that off so that it automatically goes in there," says Avdul.
"The first goal is to get them to take it out so they don't have to think about it."
Downey agrees: "It's rare that people actually think to have money taken out of their check automatically every month; it can go into a money market account or a mutual fund.
"When I say that, people are just amazed. You never see it so you won't spend it."

Don't pass up free-money

401(k) plansEmployer-match 401(k) plans work well that way for many. Although some young workers bristle at tying up their money for so long, an employer match is one of life's rare free-money opportunities that are too good to pass up.
"So many people tell me, 'I can't afford the 401(k), I'll do that in a couple years when I'm settled,'" says Aretakis. "You can't afford to wait."
Say your company will match 50 percent of your contributions, up to 6 percent of your salary. And let's imagine you earn $40,000. If you agree to contribute 6 percent, or $2,400, your company would add another $1,200 to the pot. That's a 50 percent return on your money without even putting it into a risky stock fund.
On top of that, you're putting away money on a pretax basis, which lowers your income base when it comes to paying the tax piper.
"If you're getting taxed maybe 25 percent state and federal, you just made 25 percent on your money, plus whatever cumulative interest you're going to make on top of that every year by putting it into a diversified account. You can't get any better return than that," says Aretakis.
Of course, you will have to pay taxes on that money eventually, but in the meantime it can grow unfettered by taxes.
Live within your meansTo find the scratch to sock away, Aretakis offers some suggestions.

Ways to increase income or lower expenses:
Get a roommate.
Work a second job.
Drive a fuel-efficient, secondhand car.
Use an online telephone service like Skype or Vonage to lower communications costs.
Cook in rather than eat out.
Ditch credit cards and use cash.
Above all, strive to live within your means -- not some Hollywood fantasy.
"Put together a budget and live beneath that budget," Aretakis advises. Open up a brokerage account and start socking money away, he adds.

Saturday Night Movies

2007-10-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

I havent been watching too mnay movies at the cineplexes lately cos mainly I havent been able to convince people to watch the movies. I couldnt convince anyone to come with me for resident evil extinction and thus I had to go alone....I didnt like it muhc...only the action....was ohkkk and mila jovovich wasnt even good in this one...one thing I did notice that there was smoothing technique applied ot ehr skin throughout the movie to make it look nice...unfortunately ali larter who was also in this movie didnt get it....there was no nudity and no good zombies so the movie was a dud...

I have been watching some movies lately because i copied arnd 45 gb of movies approximately 50 movies from a guy I know and I watched some movies recently. I really loved trendspotting. I dont endorse or support pushing anything but I liked the movie cos:

Ewan Mcgregor with his accent was great.

The other chap from full monty and that james bond movie was good as being as mad as a hatter

Mainly these 4 or 5 lads from scotland and their obsession with heroin....2 of them were clean and stuff....and its interesting how the story evolves

Someone told me my life is some really slow Woody Allen movie and half as interesting. I havent watched any wooden allen movie till now and since I have taken this movie "Manhattan" from someone else on the network Ill watch it soon. It stars woody allen as usual as a sad comedy writer in love with a high school girl(totally illegal), with a lesbian ex wife(a suprisingly hot meryl streep) and then he falls in love with the mistress of his best friend.Now i havent watched the movie yet but I jus watched some part of it and its in black and white....Ill watch it and let people know.

30 things I have done

2007-10-05T19:28:00.000-07:00

Saw some girl do that and she had lame entries like "I had a pet turtle"and "I had a stalker"....wat crap...i decided to put mine.....

1) Was punished in school while dancing with the national anthem
2) Was beaten by 2 chinese guys in school and I survived it
3)Was caught in class 9 imitating the vice principle
4)Was banned from bio class the entire class 10
5) Had curshes on 2 different sreya basu s( shreya and sreya), sreya basu later became my gf
6) Have been knocked off from the dance floor by a drunk girl
7)Was always dead scared of cats and dogs all my life...
8)Let a cat sit on my lap to please a special someone
9)Fought with an auto driver when I was in class 7
10)Learnt wat prostitute means when I was in class 6 and thought the idea was smashing
11) (All DB people) used to gawk at a girl called sneha misra behind our school who is now a model for maxim and cosmo(shit)
12) Parents and teachers thought I would end up in asylum or jail by 21
13) Took up bodybuilding....left it ..will take up again
14) Was a model for ABP group when I was 12 yrs old
15) Told I look like Sergey Brin and Jerry Seinfeld
16) Told i look french algerian and mistaken for one
17) Approached in various degrees of uncomfortness by several gay chaps who thought i had the quality too
18) Have been hit upon by women way elder to me
19) Had romantic obsessions which lasted 5 yrs each
20) Wanted to be a computer scientist when I was a kid
21) Had crushes on friend's gfs and fiances
22) Represented univ as a proffesional gamer
23) Became from a non photographer to one in one year
24) Always had dreams of saving a plane from a terrorist attack where a certain actress(drew barrymore, monica bellucci) needed to be rescued
25) Been told by a girl...that im sexy but not cool (hehehhee)
26) Trimmed my body hair
27) Had cut myfinger after trying to imitate zorro with a pen knife
28) Was scared of water and took me 7 or 8 yrs to learn to swim
29) Went wake boarding and looked retarded cos got cramp in the middle
30) Told everyone at salsa class that I was dyxlesic to cover up bad coordination

Loser: Story about myself and how everything can go wrong

2007-09-29T20:10:00.000-07:00

People complain how horrible their lives are....there is this lil trick they can do..jus detach themselves from their lives and take a look at it from a distance....seeing ur life objectively gives u one of the best enjoyments ever....the vouyeristic pleasure where nothing is hidden from u gives a kick and the fact that all of ur miserys and failures can be seen in a very very funny way is amazing.....

Some of us (I know the rest are all happy with gfs who worship u) have the bad luck of lacking the ability of proving ourselves worthy for a second date....asking the more successful ones it seems that the trick is to look old , rich and boring.....i cant do neither of that....so here is one of recent incidents for me

THE FINANCIAL PLANNER

Recently one of old friend happened to give me a VIP pass to a reality show set...exciting cos I never get a vip pass and this was the contender with the boxing and stuff. Anywaythe quality of girls over there was amazing in the vip zone with all the MTV vjs and all around and once I thought I was in heaven my mistake.

Two morning before goin there I had convinced myself in the morning that I wouldnt even attempt to hit on anyone and I was at peace.

So this friend of mine whom I have gone with(female with whom I had a history before but i didnt feel anythign for her) had some of her old school friends there too. Now one of them was cute as hell but as I had resolved not to even try I jus didnt do anything for a while. When my friend left to go to the rest room...this girl edges closer and starts up a conversation with me. I was carrying my nikon d80 with me and somehow the camera and phd combo seems to work well.

So she gives me her card "Ruth ........... Financial Advisor". I reply " Im the worst person to be friends with cos I have no money for u to advise me on".

So the night ends and we all go for dinner together and there is this other girl also there who keeps on talking with me ,...takes my number and never called me yet.

So a week goes by and I sms ruth with a gay joke about myself....well some guy was hitting on me during the show...... and she replys back and there are some sms exchanges and next week she agrees to meet me. But but this seems all nice.....

Day before i meet her...she is like "would i bring all the plans I have to show u and all" and Im not really interested in anything except her so I say no and she is like "its never too late to start". Now i start totally losing interest......but anyway I go for a movie and all and it seems ohhkkk.

She messages me again for meeting me...I am like wow..."Am i that good" then she messages me like "Financial Planning tonite??"

After that I never even reply to her sms or pick up her call.....I wish financial planning was a code word for something else but it sux when things are so literal........

Lesson Learnt: never show interest in any financial planner,insurance agents inspite of how nice or cute they are

LabView8.2

2007-09-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

The pic on the top is the pic of my lab..its actually a normal pic i jus screwed up the cross processing to make it look like a shady lab....which makes bioweapons ...next is a pic of me this saturday.........well nothing much about it.....

Any given wednesday...

2007-09-05T01:54:00.000-07:00

Its a wednesday....kinda that day i pretend to be busy with frequent "sighs" sitting at my table and actually slack.....thats how I can get time to write this blog......

*Things have been ok.......Ill be brutally honest.....I have to accept the fact that no girl will ever go out with me ever ever ever.....well I have already accepted that fact yesterday morning...so i have spent the last 2 days in zen without feeling terrible about myself....its jus the way it is....some people have a large head...or are bald ...or stammer...ill jus be single(its my thing)....so i have accepted it and its peaceeee............
there were some possiblities in the last few weeks there were some possiblities but i dont think they will matetrialize

*Advanced quantum mechanics is a pain in the ass...i think i have read like 3 chapters at undergrad level jus to understand things again....trying to do that now...its best to sit at spinellis(coffee shop at the university hall) and read it ...thats wat i do ...partly cos there is this really sweet cute girl at the counter...who always messes up my order(put milk in my black coffee, gave me a cup with liptick on it) and thus i have to go back thre and there is some gigling involved.......also the place is nice ...

*Life's a bitch.....no time for myself...i bought the vcd of the tencious D movie and i dont even have time to watch it.....morning to night im at the lab and then im back home trying to catch up on topics like matlab,qm,laser cooling and ion-solid interactions...i dotn even have time to breathe except that half an hr i get to eat my dinner in front of my laptop....

*im jus gonna write the things i have left to do...so that i can look at my blog and ill eb like ...shit...
1) Be good in qm....i need to be
2)do the tutorials on accelrator based materials characterization module(for that i have to read the notes and the book..the problems look easy enuff...something like classical mechanics collision cross section stuff)
3)read stuff on laser cooling...im falling ebhind there are some notes by cohen tanaoudji and there is the metcalf book i need to read....
4)read the stuff on cavitys....i ahve to get my cavity working as a frequency filter...(okk some people are switching off here)

Random Facts after a long Hiatus

2007-08-31T20:48:00.000-07:00

I ahve been very busy last few weeks so didnt even get time to type stuff in the blog(well i did watch 24 every night)...yah we have been working hard in our lab to acheive a magneto optics trap(MOT) and we finally did it(me,max,kyle and murray)......so ...

*I joined salsa class....and it seems not very difficult...till the time ur paired witha girl taller than u and u cant really twirl her around(terrible i know...once i joked to the girl if she wants to lead)...but apparently(warnign to the feministS) salsa is a very sexist dance and a girl ahs a role and the guy ahs aparticular role and the guy always calls te shots when to turn and all ...all these messages conveyed thru pressure in the hands....well if the girl is too pissed she can puncture the guys foot with her heels(so its not so disbalanced)

*my collegue(another phd student) Kyle from united states...is allegric to nuts...but thru the events of the day...he always manages to swallow a nut.....and then starts the rashes and the groning noises and the feebling swallowing of benadryl in the lab....it has happened twice now alreay...so my lab is always stocked with benadryl...

*so we have been workign on this magneto optic trap which will later be used to create a BEC(bose einstein condensate)..so basically we have this really really absolutely ultra high vaccuumm(10^-11 torrs for those u understand) whre we have some rubidium atoms floating about .....then we have these 6 laser beams arranged along the coordinate axes ...so the laser beams slow the atoms and upon application of a special magnetic field(anti helmotz configuration)...the atoms get trapped into this glowing ball size of 1 mm....1 mm contains about 10 million aotms ...... so finally after workign on it for 3 mnths we have an amazing stable atom trap.....

*I bought a nikon d80(wohhooo) with 3 kick ass lenses ...one general wideangle (18-150mm) i think,one telephoto but the best is the f/1.8 lens which gives these amazing lowfocal depth pic.....im yet to expolre the potential of this camera...but ill be doin good

*classes have started ..taking advanced quantum mech...and accelarator based material characterization....im typing the blog in the materials class....its a saturday ..yah i go to school even on saturday.....

*i ahve been sober for 2 weeks...2 reasons .. i realized i had bene becoming fat cos of the bottles of wine and beer i had been binging and secondly i ran out of money.....soo i decided to drink less ofr sometime ..lose some wieght and then start again....

*i am not daitng anyone now...hehe somehow im am doina real good job of repellig woman...anyway i have 21 yrs ofpractise...sreya wont talk to me anymore....my sex life consists of sites like pichunter and celebritymoviearchives.......its good with lot of variety...haha
(ill remove this entry i think)

*i realize i ahve this amazing ability to survive inspite of my life being jus nothing.....my gf left me....im supposed to be destroyed right...but im surviving.....yah im a lil sad...and she was jus soooo nice...but i try not to think about it at alll.....wat good can come of it....she is not coming back.....ok rest of my life is goin real good ...hehe thats why im surviving......my collegues are fun to work with and the constant jocular environment is really uplifting.....

*funny incidents....
my friend went all the way to italy went to a pub and ordered wat he thought was an italian beer...truth is it was san miguel(philipines beer) popular in hong kong...also he said it was a gay bar ..which i dont believe him

my friend who is in offsshore(i donno somehting about oil pipes) had amazing visions about his life after graduation...hehe his exacts words were(Affected by the american sitcoms)..."I thought my life would be liek FRIENDS after i graduate with fun and hangin out but its like PRISON BREAK now cos i have to be at an offshore rig"

*people are in such an obsession for being "Cool"....wat is it all about...specially people i know from calcutta....wats this obsessive compulsive behaviour to hang out,booze,party.....hehe
i mean do that...but dont put it on ur resume like its a big factor.....its like they are in a pursuit of an image of wat they want themselves to be...someone defined cool for them and they are like okk lets follow these guidelines:

1) grow weird beards.....maybe a van dyke or a goateee.....truth is in most countrys their visas are gonna be refused if they go with the beard..

2) hookah obsession.....why for goodness sake....isnt it a lil gay sititng on ur knees sucking on a pipe for an hr.....do it well and u can earn a lot of money in dark alleys.....one person i know(not a friend) had a dillemma choosing between buying ahookah or an Xbox 360.....dumbass

3) drink whiskey and vodka......as if these are the only 2 drinks in the world.....maaan and tequila....tequila is bitter and there is a bit of theatrics when u have to drink it involved but its no way that amazazing...drink the 160 proof russian vodka and ill salut u.....

4)goin to a coffee shop everyday...why ...is it for the aircon..... or ur so insecure that u need to be surrounded by equally insecure people jus to feel safe that ur not alone (bohhooo)

*anyway ill be coming up with more photo stuff later....over and out...

2007-07-08T06:25:00.000-07:00

* I am back with my glasses....i left my glasses in class 12 and never wore them...but lately have been getting these real bad headaches.....so decided to get back to them....thats me sunday night after shower hair all ruffled writing this blog entry

Random facts as of july 8th , 2007

*I have gone thru a very very bad breakup in the last 2 weeks......this was a girl i love for the last 5 yrs and suddenly its all gone....no one dumped anyone..we jus fought so much that we could not talk anymore....yes yes she was the best thing which had happened to me in a long timeand loved her a lot....she was a fantastic talented beautiful girl....but it jus didnt work out....i wish her good luck from here(cos she has blocked me from everywhere else..hehe pathetic i know) only way she can be happy is if im not with her ...i realized it and its the best thing i can do....

*surviving a breakup is hard but not impossible......u feeel suicidal for a week ..next week comes acceptance and next week comes joy...its great to ahve excellent friends who support u all the way along....made it certainly easier for me to bounce back into life after 2 really bad bad weekends.......another thing is that its ok to be sad....after all i was with her a long time and i was after her for even longer time and one bang and she is gone..its sad.....if u try to suppress the sadness it manifests into anger and self abuse...so its better to feel sad for a week or so then get rid of it by pumping iron and jogging and eating....

*My prof's son, matthew passed away a week back...broke my heart ..i wanted him to survive after all he was only 20 mnths old....went to see him in icu gave him a winnie pooh stuffed toy and jus hoped i could give a part of my life so that he survives.......but alas if only the world was so fair....poor kid jus passed away...i jus hope he didnt go thru much pain and he is in a better place....

*watched die hard 4and transformers.......die hard was great ...same old brucy hehe and his amazing dont give a fuck attitude ...certianly something we needed after a summer of lame movies....transformers was also damn good with tons of action and megan fox....man i love megan fox..they say she is the next angelina jolie....she can do something about ehr skin though...maybe she is jus a teenager and got acne problems..shit nowdays most of the actresses are younger to us...how old ahve we become....

*met nobel laureate claude cohen tanaouji adn attended his lecture on atomic clocks and trapped atoms...very awe inspiring cos thats wat my project is ...laser trapping ....lab work goin real goood....

*watched live earth functions yesterday and today...i donno why all the performances were bad ....hmmmm too much hype...but ill try to save the earth ..i promise.....

*one of my flickr pics is gonna be put on krisflyer(inflight magazine of Singapore airlines) the publisher emailed me some day back and they are paying me 300 dollars for a pic...pretty cool...i need to buy a nikon d80 soon ...

*congrats to deepa for beign the valedictorian...that girl really worked hard and she inspires me with ehr hard work.....wat lengths u can go by working hard...congrats to her again...went to her convocation...didnt go for my own....liked th real happy environment there

*I attended a 3 hr karnatic violin concert a week abck....i was the photographer....strangely i liked it a lot but the 3hr was too much for me...if it had been 1 hr i would have liked it more....anyway the people liked my pics ....and i think i have another event on 14th this mnth....

*decided to learn spanish properly ...so one hr of spanish a day...ahve to save enuff money to travel.....

over and out

Cameroon Highlands Malaysia

2007-07-08T02:30:00.001-07:00

Almost vertical trek we took to see the famous pitcher plant(insect eating)
Well me in a cool and very tranquil surroundings

Amazing view from the highest point (7000 feet)
View from the apartment we were staying in,............

So I have been off for some time... 2 weeks to be specific..was goin through a hard time(break up and all) so wasnt in the mood to write anything.....well now im back alive and kicking and jus wanted to share this trip i took to cameroon highlands (malaysia) like 2 weeks back...

Cameroon Highlands is a tea plantation in malaysia started by some british guy called some Cameroon. Its located about 6000 feet above sea level ..kinda the same as darjeeling for us...and it takes about 10 hrs to reach there by bus from singapore.....so we had to go thru an overnight bus journey to reach there.....like a smart ass i ahd decided to wear shorts and when we reached there at 6 in the morning the temp was around 10 and I almost froze to death. The place was real good (hotel was amazing with its private apartments and amazing view from each. The tea plantations were great and the cool weather was a good change from the heat of singapore. It was after a long long time i really enjoyed being on a trip and it really cheered me up. I could not put all the pics on flickr so here are all of them.

This is me like a genius wearing shorts in cold cold weather. I do have calf muscles.
The tea gardens ....very lush and the air there smelt of tea
Hehe this looked so natural that i had to take a pic of it...some new couple taking pics of each other....very very natural
This is the tea factory i visited ....smelt great.....

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2007-06-26T22:50:00.001-07:00

Ways to live, not exist

2007-06-19T19:09:00.001-07:00

Nice thing i Read through digg. com . instead of forwarding and irritating the crap out of people i decided to put it on my blog.

"The proper function of man is to live - not to exist." -- Jack London

Too often we go through life on autopilot, going through the motions and having each day pass like the one before it.

That's fine, and comfortable, until you have gone through another year without having done anything, without having really lived life.

That's fine, until you have reached old age and look back on life with regrets.

That's fine, until you see your kids go off to college and realize that you missed their childhoods.

It's not fine. If you want to truly live life, to really experience it, to enjoy it to the fullest, instead of barely scraping by and only living a life of existence, then you need to find ways to break free from the mold and drink from life.

What follows is just a list of ideas, obvious ones mostly that you could have thought of yourself, but that I hope are useful reminders. We all need reminders sometimes. If you find this useful, print it out, and start using it. Today.

Love. Perhaps the most important. Fall in love, if you aren't already. If you have, fall in love with your partner all over again. Abandon caution and let your heart be broken. Or love family members, friends, anyone -- it doesn't have to be romantic love. Love all of humanity, one person at a time.

Get outside. Don't let yourself be shut indoors. Go out when it's raining. Walk on the beach. Hike through the woods. Swim in a freezing lake. Bask in the sun. Play sports, or walk barefoot through grass. Pay close attention to nature.

Savor food. Don't just eat your food, but really enjoy it. Feel the texture, the bursts of flavors. Savor every bite. If you limit your intake of sweets, it will make the small treats you give yourself (berries or dark chocolate are my favorites) even more enjoyable. And when you do have them, really, really savor them. Slowly.

Create a morning ritual. Wake early and greet the day. Watch the sun rise. Out loud, tell yourself that you will not waste this day, which is a gift. You will be compassionate to your fellow human beings, and live every moment to its fullest. Stretch or meditate or exercise as part of your ritual. Enjoy some coffee.

Take chances. We often live our lives too cautiously, worried about what might go wrong. Be bold, risk it all. Quit your job and go to business for yourself (plan it out first!), or go up to that girl you've liked for a long time and ask her out. What do you have to lose?

Follow excitement. Try to find the things in life that excite you, and then go after them. Make life one exciting adventure after another (with perhaps some quiet times in between).

Find your passion. Similar to the above tip, this one asks you to find your calling. Make your living by doing the thing you love to do. First, think about what you really love to do. There may be many things. Find out how you can make a living doing it. It may be difficult, but you only live once.

Get out of your cubicle. Do you sit all day in front of computer, shuffling papers and taking phone calls and chatting on the Internet? Don't waste your days like this. Break free from the cubicle environment, and do your work on a laptop, in a coffee shop, or on a boat, or in a log cabin. This may require a change of jobs, or becoming a freelancer. It's worth it.

Turn off the TV. How many hours will we waste away in front of the boob tube? How many hours do we have to live? Do the math, then unplug the TV. Only plug it back in when you have a DVD of a movie you love. Otherwise, keep it off and find other stuff to do. Don't know what to do? Read further.

Pull away from Internet. You're reading something on the Internet right now. And, with the exception of this article, it is just more wasting away of your precious time. You cannot get these minutes back. Unplug the Internet, then get out of your office or house. Right now! And go and do something.

Travel. Sure, you want to travel some day. When you have vacation time, or when you're older. Well, what are you waiting for? Find a way to take a trip, if not this month, then sometime soon. You may need to sell your car or stop your cable bill and stop eating out to do it, but make it happen. You are too young to not see the world. If need be, find a way to make a living by freelancing, then work while you travel. Only work an hour or two a day. Don't check email but once a week. Then use the rest of the time to see the world.

Rediscover what's important. Take an hour and make a list of everything that's important to you. Add to it everything that you want to do in life. Now cut that list down to 4-5 things. Just the most important things in your life. This is your core list. This is what matters. Focus your life on these things. Make time for them.

Eliminate everything else. What's going on in your life that's not on that short list? All that stuff is wasting your time, pulling your attention from what's important. As much as possible, simplify your life by eliminating the stuff that's not on your short list, or minimizing it.

Exercise. Get off the couch and go for a walk. Eventually try running. Or do some push ups and crunches. Or swim or bike or row. Or go for a hike. Whatever you do, get active, and you'll love it. And life will be more alive.

Be positive. Learn to recognize the negative thoughts you have. These are the self-doubts, the criticisms of others, the complaints, the reasons you can't do something. Then stop yourself when you have these thoughts, and replace them with positive thoughts. Solutions. You can do this!

Open your heart. Is your heart a closed bundle of scar tissue? Learn to open it, have it ready to receive love, to give love unconditionally. If you have a problem with this, talk to someone about it. And practice makes perfect.

Kiss in the rain. Seize the moment and be romantic. Raining outside? Grab your lover and give her a passionate kiss. Driving home? Stop the car and pick some wildflowers. Send her a love note. Dress sexy for him.

Face your fears. What are you most afraid of? What is holding you back? Whatever it is, recognize it, and face it. Do what you are most afraid of. Afraid of heights? Go to the tallest building, and look down over the edge. Only by facing our fears can we be free of them.

When you suffer, suffer. Life isn't all about fun and games. Suffering is an inevitable part of life. We lose our jobs. We lose our lovers. We lose our pets. We get physically injured or sick. A loved one becomes sick. A parent dies. Learn to feel the pain intensely, and really grieve. This is a part of life -- really feel the pain. And when you're done, move on, and find joy.

Slow down. Life moves along at such a rapid pace these days. It's not healthy, and it's not conducive to living. Practice doing everything slowly -- everything, from eating to walking to driving to working to reading. Enjoy what you do. Learn to move at a snail's pace.

Touch humanity. Get out of your house and manicured neighborhoods, and find those who live in worse conditions. Meet them, talk to them, understand them. Live among them. Be one of them. Give up your materialistic lifestyle.

Volunteer. Help at homeless soup kitchens. Learn compassion, and learn to help ease the suffering of others. Help the sick, those with disabilities, those who are dying.

Play with children. Children, more than anyone else, know how to live. They experience everything in the moment, fully. When they get hurt, they really cry. When they play, they really have fun. Learn from them, instead of thinking you know so much more than them. Play with them, and learn to be joyful like them.

Talk to old people. There is no one wiser, more experienced, more learned, than those who have lived through life. They can tell you amazing stories. Give you advice on making a marriage last or staying out of debt. Tell you about their regrets, so you can learn from them and avoid the same mistakes. They are the wisdom of our society -- take advantage of their existence while they're still around.

Learn new skills. Constantly improve yourself instead of standing still -- not because you're so imperfect now, but because it is gratifying and satisfying. You should accept yourself as you are, and learn to love who you are, but still try to improve -- if only because the process of improvement is life itself.

Find spirituality. For some, this means finding God or Jesus or Allah or Buddha. For others, this means becoming in tune with the spirits of our ancestors, or with nature. For still others, this just means an inner energy. Whatever spirituality means for you, rediscover it, and its power.

Take mini-retirements. Don't leave the joy of retirement until you are too old to enjoy it. Do it now, while you're young. It makes working that much more worth it. Find ways to take a year off every few years. Save up, sell your home, your possessions, and travel. Live simply, but live, without having to work. Enjoy life, then go back to work and save up enough money to do it again in a couple of years.

Do nothing. Despite the tip above that we should find excitement, there is value in doing nothing as well. Not doing nothing as in reading, or taking a nap, or watching TV, or meditating. Doing nothing as in sitting there, doing nothing. Just learning to be still, in silence, to hear our inner voice, to be in tune with life. Do this daily if possible.

Stop playing video games. They might be fun, but they can take up way too much time. If you spend a lot of time playing online games, or computer solitaire, or Wii or Gameboy or whatever, consider going a week without it. Then find something else to do, outside.

Watch sunsets, daily. One of the most beautiful times of day. Make it a daily ritual to find a good spot to watch the sunset, perhaps having a light dinner while you do so.

Stop reading magazines. They're basically crap. And they waste your time and money. Cancel your subscriptions and walk past them at the news stands. If you have to read something, read a trashy novel or even better, read Dumb Little Man once a day and be done.

Break out from ruts. Do you do things the same way every day? Change it up. Try something new. Take a different route to work. Start your day out differently. Approach work from a new angle. Look at things from new perspectives.

Stop watching the news. It's depressing and useless. If you're a news junky, this may be difficult. I haven't watch TV news or read a newspaper regularly in about two years. It hasn't hurt me a bit. Anything important, my mom tells me about.

Laugh till you cry. Laughing is one of the best ways to live. Tell jokes and laugh your head off. Watch an awesome comedy. Learn to laugh at anything. Roll on the ground laughing. You'll love it.

Lose control. Not only control over yourself, but control over others. It's a bad habit to try to control others -- it will only lead to stress and unhappiness for yourself and those you try to control. Let others live, and live for yourself. And lose control of yourself now and then too.

Cry. Men, especially, tend to hold in our tears, but crying is an amazing release. Cry at sad movies. Cry at a funeral. Cry when you are hurt, or when somebody you love is hurt. It releases these emotions and allows us to cleanse ourselves.

Make an awesome dessert. I like to make warm, soft chocolate cake. But even berries dipped in chocolate, or crepes with ice cream and fruit, or fresh apple pie, or homemade chocolate chip cookies or brownies, are great. This isn't an every day thing, but an occasional treat thing. But it's wonderful.

Try something new, every week. Ask yourself: "What new thing shall I try this week?" Then be sure to do it. You don't have to learn a new language in one week, but seek new experiences. Give it a try. You might decide you want to keep it in your life.

Be in the moment. Instead of thinking about things you need to do, or things that have happened to you, or worrying or planning or regretting, think about what you are doing, right now. What is around you? What smells and sounds and sights and feelings are you experiencing? Learn to do this as much as possible through meditation, but also through bringing your focus back to the present as much as you can in everything you do.

Hmmm U have got to see this

2007-06-18T01:00:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been down for some reasons...and I happen to watch Love Actually and Music and Lyrics.... people who know me well should know why Im watching these movies ...anyway Love Actually turned out to be be a really nice movie with all that british accent and all...I wish they had given rowan atkinson a bigger role.......

]well wat was good was the starting of music and lyrics ..... a made up pop video showing hugh grant as a 80s pop sensation and the song is called a cheezy "pop goes my heart" anyone would hate the song but the tune is jus so catchy and the video is so funny and old i had to post it...

hehe pop goes my heart....

well the main song of music and lyrics is also real nice;...i donno wat is ahppening to me but im in love with that song too...it was a decent movie with hugh grant stealing the show as a washed out pop sensation.....so heres the main song...hugh grant sang it himself....

its called "way back into love"

Random Facts As on thursday 14/6/07

2007-06-13T19:55:00.000-07:00

Hmmm debanuj im sorry but im copying ur style .....sorry for plagarising ur random fact thingy

*Im trying to save money....i have been living on change for 2 weeks....its soon that they will declare me bankrupt and homeless and call me a hobo.....

*Saw fantastic four yesterday....although u could see his nuts, silver sufer was really cool....but i always imagined wat was teh coincidence that some guy from another planet actually had something which was a surfboard(earthy thing)
I always like jessica alba....she is real cute..but her too blondified hair looked fake and it was irritating seeing her blue contact lens all the time...it was tooo easy to notice them....
I like the human torch the most....with his quippy comments and narcissism...reminds me of someone i know hehe
Stan Lee actualyl made another appearance in the movie as stan lee himself...hehe this man is a genius and he isnt that old

*I had seen oceans thirteen last week....well oceans 13 was way better than 12 and the thing is it featured a linear storyline......no julia roberts or catherine jones around but movie rocked and it was damn damn funny.....al pacino was good as usual....i think it was the best amongnst all the summer blockbusters

*Im in love with elisha curbert...i think i made a spelling mistake....i knew i know her from somewhere before...she used to be one of the kids from popular mechanics for kids....after watching 24 im totally in love with her......

El Mariachi.... The ultimate action hero

2007-06-13T19:47:00.000-07:00

I dont think most people know it but the thing is Desperado was actually the second movie in the triology about El Mariachi(musician). The first one was calle "El mariachi" and was in spanish , the second and third were Desperado and Once upon a time in Mexico Respectively...

Somehoe the character Mariachi seems to be the ultimate action hero :

He carries a gun in one hand and a guitar case in another...how awesome is that...

He gets babes like salma hayek and eva mendes....hmmmmm

He plays the guitar awesfully well and I like the clothes he wears dark and well fitting

He has all possible hand guns in his arsenal ...a one man army...nothing can stop him

uzi,sawn off shotgun,silverballers,desert eagle wat else do u want

He is based in a cool country like mexico and actually has a fight during the parade of the dead to save the el presidente....

Check out these two videos if ur still not convinced about him:

Wonder Years??

2007-06-12T00:15:00.000-07:00

After 23 yrs of existing on this planet ....if u think about the old times u mostly remember only the good things which happened to you, how u got up excited every sunday to watch ducktales and talespin on dd2.......how everyday in school something really funny happened where u died out of laughter....there wasnt anyone to bother u ...it jus consisted of saving ur ass and having fun without any sense of judgement etc etc...things we did in school...while coming home in sharmaji's 1946 chevrolet bus which was literally falling into pieces....

hmmm lemme try to remember something funny from the past....

class 1 to 5

heheh all i can remember now is getting punished.......well used to go to school in this really really old bus and i used to be one of the last chaps the bus picked up cos i used to live nearet to school.....it was terrible standing at 7:15 in the morning for the bus specially in shorts during winter where my insides would freeze due to the cold.....I used to go to school with one set of people and return back with another set......with whom all i used to go where dipayan and shomi...i jus remember dip, shomi, dips brother who came later ....this retarded big dude called arindam who was 5 yrs younger to me and still as large as me and some guy called rasogolla cos he looked like one and i used to torment him tons for it....

class 1 to 5 as the shortest and the most underweight guy in my batch i had to spend time getting the shit kicked out of me.......i used to return home with shubharti, ronit(they were brotheres then)..devesh daga as i can rememebr and some real nasty senior chaps who always used to beat me for fun.... first they would kick my bag stomp on it and then after they had finished the bag they would move on to me...i remember distincly them asking me in class 3 "have u seen a blue film" and stupid as i was i said "yah i have seen the good son" the movie good son was a depressing movie with elijiah wood and mackl culkin and it was shot with a blue filter...they laughed at me and beat me again.....

I love mondays

2007-06-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

Yah will sound weird but I do love mondays......see its easy to blame everything that goes wrong during the day on the day itself......forgot to bring item x..."oh its a monday thats why"

I donno maybe im in love with depression...it seem to follow me everywhere like a bright sunlit cloud(irony)...so had met some people in the canteen someday back who were actully justifying why its good to be depressed... i will objectively state their points without bothering to put in something good....

"happiness apparently has only one stage happy or not happy....there are several stages of depression which people can discover and enjoy......depression makes u appreciate music and literature like never before....there are many things you didnt take a second look at before now becomes so important because u can appreciate it cos ur sad and depressed"

disclaimer: I am not sad or depressed, so people plzzz dont send me messages saying i have more things to look forward to than boiled eggs for breakfast

another thought came to me..... most of my friends and me were after girls who were seriously unstable which led me to a conclusion that only cos these girls had deviant tastes , they were dating us...if they were normal with normal tastes they wouldnt even look at us ....hmmm gives my self worth a huge booost....

anyway convinced my prof to buy a nikon d40x for the lab ...hehe will have fun practicing on the camera......

hmmm i have been wasting too much time lately...doin some hands on work but not doin my reading much.....jus have to start reading from tommorow.....

Randoms Facts

2007-06-10T08:26:00.000-07:00

I was goin thru my friend debanuj's blog and his random fact thingy looked smart and neat so i decided to let go of originality and follow his format......

hmmm random facts:

I am very very very very pissed with someone and that person knows it. My dignity is at stake and instead of letting it go I have decided to scrape up watever is left of my dignity.

Quote of the day...my friend told me online "I thought we were insensetive...woman are way more insensetive than us"

Did u know vodka martinis are tasteless ..I had one on friday...wat a waste of money...

Some interested people have decided to pay me for taking their photos....plzzz plzzz god let this work out...

Looking at my paunch with disgust I have decided to seriously start working out from tommorow.....no more softy only lean muscles

People used to make fun of my ass in school...lets see whose laughing now...i used to be called .... BUTTMAN-the assed crusader

I realized I cannot go out wiht any girl in this world...(No u bastards not cos im gay) its jus that i find every girl to be defective...some like themselves too much ...some dont take a shower...some like other girls....some are maternal...some are mental... some know the names of all the pastas(and they are not italian)....some are too "cultured" to like me

my prof's 20 mnth son isnt doin well health wise....i really really wish he gets better poor kid....

I have decided to take courses in both electric guitar and jazz piano lets see which one works out......

I decided to read a jeffrey archer (memeber of parliament) book....i used to see arjun in school reading "kane and able" 8 yrs have passed and finally now i decide to read one of those....also taken life of pi...hitchhikers guide from the library ....which one do i read first....hmmmm

never tell anyone that the person has potential...read a quote by frog eyed butt ugly crazy assed jerk philosopher satre that "saying u have potential means ur a loser....cos if u were succesful no one would say u have potential..they would ahve said u have dont it already"

I realized im not very ethnic....i hardly ever went to durga pujo....or a single bhai phota....or ever went to a temple...its not cos i dont respect tradition or im an atheist but jus like that.....ill thus have ease letting go of myself ebing bengali and become something else....for now sake ill be international man of mystery...ok thats rubbish

I should get well fitting clothes......either they are too big or too small.....but then again my size will change in next 1 mnth..i donno wat to dooo

had this cream of mushroom soup which i bought from marks and spencers...was realy really good....had a chicken chop and beef steak for luch so decided to have doi bhat for dinner.....give the liver some rest

Well that was a Saturday

2007-06-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

Well it was another weird saturday. Got up in the morning (10 am) well .... spent till like 2 hrs sitting on the bed chatting with my brother. jumped directly to lunch ,..... kaushic had called me at 8 in themorning and i had shouted at him on the phone for waking me up.......

so well at 3 met kaushic and we had nothing to do sooo we went to the national museum ...i liked the blend of old and new in the national museum and always wanted to capture it in photos and i had got an oppurtunity sooo i jus went along with my cam....

wellll reached there took some pics(i ahvet processed most of them) nothing much was goin on so went to the art museum in the basement.......well i cant even rememebr wat i saw ....

so the first pic above is inside the national museum they have put glass facades over the 100 yr old structure making it look really good....took a pic in hdr...later pics will come...

after that went to water front opposite boat quay where the second pics was taken....i ahve bought a mini stand to take night photos and it really helps being so small and convinient...

after that i went home...bohooo so boring

Sarah Silverman on Paris Hilton

2007-06-05T21:07:00.000-07:00

Yah yah i know this is all over the net but those who missed it should see how sarah silverman(standup angry jewish female comedian) talks about parish hilton while she is present there...

Stevie Wonder Superstition and Mc Hammer Cant touch this

2007-06-05T21:04:00.001-07:00

These are two songs I think which kicked ass when I was a kid ...so jus decided to put those videos here

Some 3 yr old pics

2007-06-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

Found some really good pics from first year...they were in kaushics comp....hehe rememebered the time we took stupid pics using rishabs cam ....nice times... now everyones soo old and boring

Apparently this pic was meant to be that i cannot resist the call of my kin that is rishab is trying to keep me away from the lab animal holding place which is really where i belong taken at 4 am in the morning i guess.....
Studying at 3 am in the monring before physics exam 1st sem....elevated plane i guess...rishabhs room cos he had aircon
Yaaah my first year pgp room....rishabh playing games on my comp 2 am at night.....we never really had any sense of time then...

Varun me and rishabh first year ...first time we went to raffles place i guess......pizza hut was closd and i got mad and puched karthik cos i was hungry hmmmm crazy

Jobhaters anonymous meeting

2007-06-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

"Help me I hate my job, everything around me seems so dark....how I have been tempted to jump off my office building.... everyone in my office is soo boring.....i dont think im fit for this job.....how will i survive this.....this is not wat i meant my life to become....if u say "this is the begining of the rest of my life" ...ill kill u"

Im tired of hearing people complaining about their jobs and their high expectations of wat their job would be like ... wat the hell did they expect....when the graduate they will get bill gates job as cheif software architect of microsoft....even that would eb a trouble with my portly friend who has gas problems cos bill gates has to travel a lot.....

hey who had the perfect job at the first time....no one did....ifu are brave enuff to belive all this is not for u then stop working and start ur own company.....if ur not brave enough or "I need the money for settling down" kinda guy then jus look at the bright side of ur work.....
maybe some pretty girl who works with u....in house gym/...free food.....unlimited broadband for downloading stuff.......or even free sationary so u can scribble pics on it..(nah i know ur not pam from the office but wat would u do if u worked for michael scott)

so people stop complaininn about work.......abraham lincoln first job was in a dinghy office where there were no glass on the windows but oiled paper.........colonel sanders from kfc had to live in his car for 5 yrs at the age of 65 untile someone accepted his chicken recipe....wat if had given up......all the pricks wasting their fathers money at the park street kfc in calcutta would know how much effort has gone to make that chicken recipe work................

wellmaybe u can call be self righteous sourpuss grumpy man but wat to do this is wat i feel... without purugatory hard work there is no salvation....last year i ahd wasted my time like hell an now i feel the effects of it......

so people wat do u have to loose...imsure u have a good place to stay(people in singapore not included in this cos finding a good house is a real pain in the ass now) and u have nice friends...gfs bfs who really want to help you thru the bad times.. so why not give it a try instead of quitting.,....... as for me i have my lovely breakfast with 2 kaya butter toast and 2 half boiled eggs tolook forward to everyday .....

If u have a lemon,make a lemonade

2007-06-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

For all those ignorant pricks who think self help books dont work jus cos ur damn egoistic to admit u even need help ...up ur pooper..

Ok most part of my life ...i had no one tell me im good or i had even the possiblity of doin something good....so when i was all alone and really no idea that i can even do moderately good stuff i found this book by dale carnegie.....stop worrying and start living....

yah for those who think this is all too chezzy stop fucking reading okkk.....

well i had always thought man was born with some predetermined capabilities which limited him to some level beyond which he cant go....all these limits have been established by our parents(who are limited themselves) and society and the teachers who said ill end up doin nothing ...one said ill never even school (may her bottom burn in hell)..... now if we listen too much to all these and stop believing in ourselves we are always limited by this invisible ceiling which doesnt let us beleive we can go further........

but the truth is no such limit exists.....no at all....my dad always amde fun of me being weak and not being able to lift stuff,,,,,and for 15 yrs i believed in it tooo.....but once i hit the gym i realized how wrong i was...we are not predetermined to be weak or strong wat we are is in our hands.....

the stupid world and the people around us always try to convince us that maximum we can become is like them...

well as this book says ..... make a LEMONADE WHEN U HAVE A LEMON.... most of u will go "huh i know this already"....

so listen donkeys .... life is not about capitalizing on ur profit but we gain the most when we capitalize on ur losses ...so make the best of the worst situations....

Pics at Clark Quay

2007-06-03T09:13:00.000-07:00

Went for lunch at Clarke Quay ...u know with all the expensive resturants... well went to this place called IVORY ...apparently its there in calcutta tooo...well i dont go or get invited to expensive resturants much cos nobody likes me enuff to invite me to something ..anyway went there cos my aunt was treating and was bored out of my mind...2 bloody marys helped a bit but even then the food made me sick.....i donno i have eaten fast food for so loong that posh resturant food is not good for me....anyway i had taken my cam wiht me gave me a chance to take a lot of pics....couldnt take many inside cos it was dark.....all was goin when this useless fat man with a nikon dslr came and stole my glory...

The usual pic ...i think people will realise it...donno how many jds i had in this place with kow...some intern friends etc etc...

I like the way they build modern stuff on the existing building .... this is a hospital themed pub...heheget wasted and they will take care of u...

This is the pic of the people at the place.....i was happy enough that I was asked to take the pic because .....THEN I DONT HAVE TO BE IN IT...WOHOOO>..anyway i wont bother to explain who is who...cos i dont care

My half drunk bloody mary.....helped a lot to get my mind off the environment and focus on more imp things like ...wat if i had huge muscles...do grls like guys with more muscles....wat if i became a real photographer one day ..ho cool if my photos come in the newspaper and then...when can we even start eating
and this pic is for the people who have been to grain of salt to compared.....as for me i dont care about the ambiance and the food was like 5/10/////i have seen all big places dissapoint with the food donno why....i like good food ...dont care if im eating it on the road...rememebr those kati rolls i had with sreya they were amazing.......december was great

Friends Therapy-it really works

2007-06-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

From now on I have decided to stop meeting people at all cos they seem to anger me and irritate me very much. Decided to be a total recluse so the only way people are gonna know wat im upto is thru this blog or the bad smell(will i smell bad??) when i die......

So this decision comes at a time when i have decided to focus on my aims and aspirations...events in the last year have diverted me from my goal of being ......... and thus I want to get back into track and focus totally.....I see i function better when i dont interact with much people...

well this change of being from a mildy social person to a hermit living in his room is hard for me sooo i needed somehting to feel good.,,,,,so i decided on FRIENDS therapy...no no not real friends but the sitcom friends u know with ross rachel chadler etc etc i was so much in love with monica once.... well friends therapy means that u keep on watching FRIENDS till u feel good ....so watched like 4episodes of season one and then 3 episodes of malcolm in the middle till i felt good....

so was an uneventful day today...had been in china town yesterday taking some HDR pics which i kinda liked...but most of them didnt come as good as i expected....hmmmm ....i sooo want to buy a new digital slr specially nikon..... also want some photographic assignment.....

so decided to go seriously into body building .... not in professional but build my body in the 4 yrs to a great extent and im talking full blown with whey protein and creatine,,,, finally i get an oppurtunity to do wat i want....

well freinds therapy wearing off i better go to sleep...

well another thing i read this hyped about book called the alchemist by some brazilian dude with a beard who is also doinn some hp laptop ad nowdays(wat the hell) and well i liked th books optimistic attitude...i mean believeing in goals and all....i hate depressing books ...wats the worth living if u dont have an feeling that things will go alright and thats why i liked the alchemist,,,,,